Finding myself


Futures Past

As a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? How close or far are you from that vision?

I can remember from a very early age wanting to be a teacher. I can remember pretending to be a teacher using the trees around me as my students. I had that idea for a long time be somewhere it changed and I wanted to be a surgeon but that fantasy didn’t last long. Finally, I decided that I wanted to study music. I started taking piano lessons when I was in the 3rd grade and loved it. So as I entered high school I thought that is what I would like to do. So as I reached my high school graduation and beginning to plan my future I talked about studying music/piano. But the people that I talked with that heard my aspirations threw cold water on my plan and told me that I couldn’t make a living at playing music. So I thought about becoming a nurse. Same thing again of when I told someone of my career plans, I was told that if I wasn’t good in Math then I couldn’t be a nurse. Well I wasn’t good at Math so I didn’t pursue that idea either. So in the end I left high school with no dreams.

Since I was a failure at what I wanted to be when I grew up, I decided to be a wife and a mother which there is NOTHING wrong with that profession at all. I loved every moment of being a mother. I married an Army soldier and we travelled the world. Kids and travelling were about the best part of that marriage but that’s a whole other blog!

So here I am today at 50 years old and still can’t decide what I want to be when I grow up. My life DID NOT turn out like I planned. I did go to college but that turned out to be a horrible decision. It cost WAY more money than I could afford and STILL didn’t lead to anything I wanted to do so now I’m stuck paying loans without a goal! I do work in the medical field for the VA which is a very rewarding career but only on the admin side. Not anything as glamorous as a nurse or a doctor. Just a secretary.

Still trying to find myself!


About gypsygurl64

Just me and my thoughts.
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